Life on the Lines

So I had an epiphany.

Sun, 19 May 2013 17:56:00 -0400

This all came from a recent quote out of “How I met your mother”:

“Love is trusting someone enough to tell them what’s really bothering you.” - Arthur

(also from talking extensively with my boyfriend about communication in general)

I’ve been thinking more and more about how egocentrism is inevitable - actually, that’s pretty much the theme of my college career. When I first entered college I just wanted everyone to like me…like most do. Many want to come out from their limited and naive high school bubble and find people just like them, with minds that are able to exchange significant ideas and form some kind of connection with them.

I think so far in college though, I have taken it too far. I often remain silent, or add to a conversation via agreement. I do it because I know I can get a positive response out of whoever I am talking to by agreeing with them. But slowly (very slowly) I’ve come to realize how pointless that is. If someone agrees with me in an argument, I don’t think about how much I like the person (although that is definitely an effect) - I think about how right I am - and how elated my ego feels, not theirs. The agreers are supporting characters, but I pay them no mind.

The hardest for me to realize and confront, which is why the process has taken so long, is that the whole time I allow others’ opinions to dominate my own I have seen it as an act of connecting through submission. I don’t necessarily agree but I never counter, and I also have seen it in the past almost as a favor because it avoids conflict. (Yes I now understand this is illogical because no one ends up knowing what I think at all).

But I think I have finally learned, albeit tumultuously and not without collateral damage, that conflict is necessary. Conflict is unavoidable if you want to make an impact on someone and if you want to bond with them. But conflict also does not mean fighting. Conflict means you trust the person you confront to not react with the intention of hurting you, and you do the same. People are just different and sometimes you’ve got to find out why and find a middle ground. So, the next time I have an opinion, I’m going to say it, and I’m not going to make the situation into an attacker/victim or a dominate/submit dynamic in my own mind, because that is illogical.

/epiphany

goo-goomuck: m0iety: Hyperstealth is a Canadian company that...

Wed, 08 May 2013 20:46:51 -0400

goo-goomuck:

m0iety:

Hyperstealth is a Canadian company that has recently developed a material that bends light waves around a target that allows for complete invisibility labeled “Quantum Stealth”. The material removes not only your visual, infrared (night vision) and thermal signatures but also the target’s shadow.

Holy shit the inivisibility cloak is real now. Thank you science

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batheezy: BASICALLY MY LIFE>

Wed, 08 May 2013 20:32:45 -0400

batheezy:

BASICALLY MY LIFE>

How the fuck do people transition from college while still in classes...

Wed, 08 May 2013 18:01:00 -0400

I feel like my professors are raping me this quarter with multiple papers and exams every week, I need to find a place to live, I need to find income and get experience for a career, AND keep my current job because it’s helping me survive on the shit amount of money the university gives me to live on.

WHAT. THE. FUCK. fuck all of you, professors and university-running assholes

For once I want to be pampered >:( Pms + quitting smoking again —> not taking...

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 00:25:34 -0400

For once I want to be pampered >:(

Pms + quitting smoking again —> not taking anyone’s shit

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Tue, 23 Apr 2013 18:04:13 -0400

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Tue, 23 Apr 2013 18:04:06 -0400

“Kiss, hand, diamonds, best friend” - Moulin Rouge (2001)

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 18:03:40 -0400

“Kiss, hand, diamonds, best friend” - Moulin Rouge (2001)

signofamotekun: thatferrybroad: wliabl: Cleopatra’s...

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 18:02:27 -0400

signofamotekun:

thatferrybroad:

wliabl:

Cleopatra’s Underwater Palace, Egypt

I still don’t get why no one is LOSING THEIR FUCKING SHIT OVER THIS FIND

iT SURVIVED THE EARTHQUAKE THAT LEVELED THE REST OF THE CITY IN 365 A.D.

CLEOPATRA’S FUCKING PALACE

WITH INTACT FUCKING STATUARY

NOT TO MENTION THE REST OF THE FUCKING ENTIRE GODDAMN ISLAND OF ANTIRRHODOS INCLUDING THE ANCIENT PORT OF ALEXANDRIA

AND THEY’RE GONNA BUILD A MOTHERFUCKING UNDERWATER MUSEUM

UNDERWATER. MUSEUM.

can I be a mermaid tour guide there or some shit, you don’t even have to pay me i will just live there forever oh my fucking god

Bruh they have discovered whole pyramids intact under water. Egyptian architecture makes modern buildings look like legos.

How I feel about my finances

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 17:59:48 -0400

whatshouldwecallme:

On pay day:

After I pay rent:

Maaaan...

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 15:56:14 -0400

Childhood was like being in a safe little box my parents made that grew larger with me.

Then adolescence was all about figuring out ways to reach outside that box without actually leaving it.

Then in college I actually got out of the box, and got to feel the world beyond it. Sweet.

Now in adulthood I have to make my own box while secretly wishing I could go back to my old one because I finally realize it fucking sucks putting that shit together from scratch.

Now I just hope my box ends up better than my parents’ I guess…or at least stable.

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 03:07:03 -0400

I need some serious life advice right now :/

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 17:12:28 -0400

I need some serious life advice right now :/

courtnu: rimestar: thesuperwhovenger: Johnny Depp giving CPR...

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 17:08:13 -0400

courtnu:

rimestar:

thesuperwhovenger:

Johnny Depp giving CPR to his jack Sparrow wig.

Oh god, could this man be awesomer.

This is part of the reason why Johnny Depp is my favourite actor.

bambamyong: collinesjaune: There was once a very lovely, very...

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 17:03:51 -0400

bambamyong:

collinesjaune:

There was once a very lovely, very frightened girl.

she lived alone except for a nameless cat

Breakfast at Tiffany’s, 1961

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sleepinginthelilies: be mine

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 17:02:44 -0400

sleepinginthelilies:

be mine

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